oneroad

I was quit happy with this one, but it’s still my first one (:

Zayn has found himself at the bottom and need help up but he can’t do it on his own.

Coldplay - Fix you

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“When you try your best but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse “

There I was again. The same place at the same time everyday. The only thing that changed was the cigarette I was smoking.
I don’t want this anymore, it just destroys me. But I need the thrill and the nicotine. The rush.
I just want this to stop but I can’t do it alone. I fell so alone.
Whatever I do to stop this, always I fall back.

“And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?”

I can’t hold it back anymore, all this emotions making me break and my tears won’t stop until I’ve ended this.
“I don’t want to lose the lads, for what? This? I don’t want to leave them earlier just because I’m weak.
I love them and I would do anything for the but for what cost if I can’t stop with this.”
The thought of losing my my beat mates made me tear up again.

“Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you “

-Zayn are you okey? As I turned around I saw Niall with a sad face.
-No, I’m not. Please help me. As I put down the cigarette and throw myself into the blonds arms.
-I promise to help you. I’ll always be here for you. I love you forever and I will never let you go. It was like a wiser but I heard him so clear.

“High up above or down below
when you’re too in love to let it go
but If you never try you’ll never know
Just what your worth “

For a second I felt like I was in heaven. That I could stand there forever just hear Nialls whispers in my ear. But of course I wasn’t in heaven. I was standing on a balcony with Niall crying my eyes out.
-I love you so mush. I promise to never let you go. I want you in my life.
-I love you too Zayn. He wiped away my tears with the arm of his shirt and gave me a quick peek om my blushed cheek.
“I love him so mush but am I worth him”?

“Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you “

-I will be here for you and help you. Never forget that. Every time you feel for taking a smoke can I take your mind of things. Just promise that you will let me help you.
I nodded into his neck.

“Tears streaming down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears streaming down your face and I “

I couldn’t stop crying. It was so hard for me to believe that things will be good again.
This time I’ll really have to try to stop. Now I have something to fight for. And I will learn things from this.
As the tears streamed down I felt small circles on my back.

“Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you”

Now I’ve found something that will help me back from this bark hole.
He will lead me into life again.
And he will hold me there forever.